i guess the most hurtful thing was when police and ambulance and hosptial staff where abusing me, that bullying and childishness shocked me, cuz I thought those people were taught to know and act better then that. there is no room to be a human or failure in their jobs and that is why I could never work in that anyway, I can only handle dental nursing and that suits me. but I said goodbye to a lot of people who wronged me, who didn't live by hypocratic oath and "first do no harm" principle. I was always told I am a good listener and good at complying to others rules , and interesting that stats show einstein with his intellect was a great complyer to others rules and I just don't have time to listen to others much now seeing no one listened to me. I am learning not to be so giving and not so forgiving. that was were I went wrong with so much catholic convent education.