i have a bad habit of sending loads of update emails to people on my list and yet I know most don't care about me. a few send facebook friend invites and others just want to know gossip and I just wish I could stop sending the emails its become an addiction to email people I know actually hate me. why do I do that? its an illness its part of my illness, I often wish I never send the emails thinking- well I can't prove these things about her or him or who that was I just think it was them