the role of a preist or nun or paster is be impartial and not take sides and be judgmental, they are not judges of the court of law anyway. and that was what I didn't like about paster tony that he was judging me for what the pedo got me to do as a child and blaming me and abusing me and like one week I was welcome and by week 4 I was not. and as if his own backyard is clean and he and not one person has any right commenting about my childhood and my being abused and how the pedo died. no one has the right to judge me so as soon as he did I started finding any excuse to insult him because I could tell he is a complete bullshitter liar fraud, he never honors a thing he says and that wife of his is a bikers mole and they look like a pair of retarted dwarf common freeloaders sucking of the church congregation really who are being brainwashed and abused. I shook my head like you expect me to believe this bullshit about I have to do penance for what I did as a child what the pedo got me to do? well why isn't everyone else? and then they started on making me fee ugly and that women only look for stability and not looks in a man and men only want beautiful young wives and it was almost like well your married to god or jesus now and the way you dress and look no man is going to love you and I am thinking well I must be weird cuz I think tony is ugly I couldn't bare him near me, I prefer beautiful looking men and i am a woman and i know some men like older women and then other organisations and groups said I was not to blame as a child, and I could see the game they were playing and my brother and his slut wife and my sister and her slut whore cookie - dad wants to get cookie and squeeze her neck and kill her, and he wants to kill ken. sorry but if people think they can bully me into love you can't. I dump on people who bully at the last chance. and I am not interested in incest relationships, its disgusting! and I am going to punish that spastic whore sadie dog. she is a slut. a spastic devil with those black ugly eyes. and I don't have to like ken. I would prefer anyone but that unreliable unworthy dishonorable scum. I knew I deserved better then him. mum and dad want to kill him. and the churches. they have no time for them at all bullying me.

the role of a preist or nun or paster is be impartial and not take sides and be judgmental, they are not judges of the court of law anyway. and that was what I didn't like about paster tony that he was judging me for what the pedo got me to do as a child and blaming me and abusing me and like one week I was welcome and by week 4 I was not. and as if his own backyard is clean and he and not one person has any right commenting about my childhood and my being abused and how the pedo died. no one has the right to judge me so as soon as he did I started finding any excuse to insult him because I could tell he is a complete bullshitter liar fraud, he never honors a thing he says and that wife of his is a bikers mole and they look like a pair of retarted dwarf common freeloaders sucking of the church congregation really who are being brainwashed and abused. I shook my head like you expect me to believe this bullshit about I have to do penance for what I did as a child what the pedo got me to do? well why isn't everyone else? and then they started on making me fee ugly and that women only look for stability and not looks in a man and men only want beautiful young wives and it was almost like well your married to god or jesus now and the way you dress and look no man is going to love you and I am thinking well I must be weird cuz I think tony is ugly I couldn't bare him near me, I prefer beautiful looking men and i am a woman and i know some men like older women and then other organisations and groups said I was not to blame as a child, and I could see the game they were playing and my brother and his slut wife and my sister and her slut whore cookie - dad wants to get cookie and squeeze her neck and kill her, and he wants to kill ken. sorry but if people think they can bully me into love you can't. I dump on people who bully at the last chance. and I am not interested in incest relationships, its disgusting! and I am going to punish that spastic whore sadie dog. she is a slut. a spastic devil with those black ugly eyes. and I don't have to like ken. I would prefer anyone but that unreliable unworthy dishonorable scum. I knew I deserved better then him. mum and dad want to kill him. and the churches. they have no time for them at all bullying me.
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