I have never been big on love. I have been in love or had a lot of crushes on different men, but men don't return any emotional exchanges to me even as a teen or young woman people always thought I was younger I looked younger and sounded younger in my voice even now people say you don't sound your age. I tell them well I feel a dam sight older then my age at times the pain I am always in for the last 10 years when I got some weird virus the doctors thought it was whooping cough and then I seem to get a lot of viruses for a while after a bat peed on me at night at work. I knew that was witchcraft abuse. I wouldnt know what love was. it wasn't rick and it wasn't all the weird friends of my sisters husbands either, it was not ken and it was not even frank. I think love is for the rich and lucky and selfish. love is a selfish act, it requires you to only think of yourself and be unware of anyone elses needs, which I was never taught to do. I wish I had been taught to be selfish and conceited young. it would have helped to be taught that and pushy and bitchy and bold, I was too shy to help myself.

I have never been big on love. I have been in love or had a lot of crushes on different men, but men don't return any emotional exchanges to me even as a teen or young woman people always thought I was younger I looked younger and sounded younger in my voice even now people say you don't sound your age. I tell them well I feel a dam sight older then my age at times the pain I am always in for the last 10 years when I got some weird virus the doctors thought it was whooping cough and then I seem to get a lot of viruses for a while after a bat peed on me at night at work. I knew that was witchcraft abuse. I wouldnt know what love was. it wasn't rick and it wasn't all the weird friends of my sisters husbands either, it was not ken and it was not even frank. I think love is for the rich and lucky and selfish. love is a selfish act, it requires you to only think of yourself and be unware of anyone elses needs, which I was never taught to do. I wish I had been taught to be selfish and conceited young. it would have helped to be taught that and pushy and bitchy and bold, I was too shy to help myself.

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