I hate leaving my cats - they are all I really have. no one else really loves or cares and I guess that is how it will always be, it will never change. my life never changes for the better, I am too old now to believe it could. its all too late now. everything always comes too late to me and its thrown at me thanklessly as well, which is insulting. and usually its rubbish and not quality compared to everyone elses life.