I have to have biopsies again this time taken from vaginal area and I worry about cancer in the ears and back and leg from car accident and some mornings I wake up with my heart racing which I dislike and so sick of this weight. I just feel like I am being abused all over again. I am being once again punished for the sexual abuse as a child. that is all it means to me. my doctors understand how I feel and say its normal to feel that way, but its best to be done to find out once and for all what is going on there.