heart and chest pain this morning and everytime I plan a nice day out something goes wrong even if its agonising server period cramps I wanted to vomit a few times and had diarrhea a few times and bum bleeds and migranines last week. I can't relax, I study from 4am some mornings if I can't sleep and I won't know how to relax anyway. there is always something to worry about. and my depression which is on going and panic and hating the world and all the years of my life I have been hated and abused, kicked up the bum all my life for doing nothing wrong. joyce should learn not talk so violent and use such violent words around women. men need the bashings up and kicks in bum but to me women deserve kicks in the face, and you see all these young slutty dogs their selfishness and selfish breeding and selfish love mongering when they are ugly hopeless useless lazy and boring women who are so stereotyped they make me laugh when they get with their sprogs and breeding cow whore mothers clubs and doctors sniffing their asses and hanging out their tongues like a mongrel pup for all these special special doggiestylers and their mongrel offspring who should be all euthanised. these women are so selfish. they truely do believe that only they exist and only they have needs and everyone else doesn't really matter because they don't have jobs or degrees or kids or husbands or are thin or fat or too pretty or too whatever, unless you fit into the "mummy uniform and mummy hours and mummy horseplay and sprog dropping selfish mongrel ginnies, ginny whores on heels and cars and so generic and they look the same they sound the same they posture the same they power play the same annoying uselss way. if only they really knew their true uselessness to society !!!" anyway the movie and cinemas was shit as usual, all the movies are shit.