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my mum said once she got so sunburnt as a child her mother had to cut off her dress and she said she was grateful because she hated the dress anyway. I know that feeling. like today I have tried frankincense and myrh and fennel oil, aloe and seaweed again, and sprayed some peppermint spray over me. and made a green tea with cider vinegar and lime and cinnamon and last night I had some coconut water again. I only ever have 1 coffee a day and I drink more tea as I prefer the taste. I am blistering on the back. I don't know if I went to my skin doctor he would probably not be good about this and of all people I should have known better already having skin cancer removed but I seriously was not in the sun that long, I thought the bloody tree shade was more then adequate - when these things happen I really begin to question my common sense or is it just some other factor? like I walk longer distances other days I like to go for walks sometimes because it just clears my head so I find any excuse to go out because I am sick of being at home. well really to be blunt I bloody sick of everything and everyone around me, I just want to move and change a lot of things in my life. I am not happy here anymore and I have not been happy living in this area for a long long long time. its only money and opportunities that have held me back. I hate the place, I hate the area and the people. i just hate everything about it.

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my mum said once she got so sunburnt as a child her mother had to cut off her dress and she said she was grateful because she hated the dress anyway. I know that feeling. like today I have tried frankincense and myrh and fennel oil, aloe and seaweed again, and sprayed some peppermint spray over me. and made a green tea with cider vinegar and lime and cinnamon and last night I had some coconut water again. I only ever have 1 coffee a day and I drink more tea as I prefer the taste. I am blistering on the back. I don't know if I went to my skin doctor he would probably not be good about this and of all people I should have known better already having skin cancer removed but I seriously was not in the sun that long, I thought the bloody tree shade was more then adequate - when these things happen I really begin to question my common sense or is it just some other factor? like I walk longer distances other days I like to go for walks sometimes because it just clears my head so I find any excuse to go out because I am sick of being at home. well really to be blunt I bloody sick of everything and everyone around me, I just want to move and change a lot of things in my life. I am not happy here anymore and I have not been happy living in this area for a long long long time. its only money and opportunities that have held me back. I hate the place, I hate the area and the people. i just hate everything about it.
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