I feel like I am the calm strong tree watching cyclones around me of other peoples cyclones of crap. sometimes they make me laugh or look at myself differently but I am poor and have no relationship or house etc but i would rather be me then be the foolish they don't even know they are living. I still want more etc and a better life. I have so many bills I have no idea where the money is coming from and also I wants and keep hope to find the man for me but it doesn't mean as much now to me, I feel like most of my dreams are over and won't come to existance anyway. my dreams are over and I have to focus on my health and doing my own thing because i doubt i will have a child or marry or have the career i wanted. I don't even have a passion or purpose. I just do whatever.