it's just something I have noticed that whenever I put a video in he thinks I am refering to him and I just want to move on from someone who couldn't even give me the love or time I needed or things my way and everytime some funny video goes on this delusional navie freak thinks it means I owe him or should behold to him and I don't. I really really want someone new and exciting to me and he could never be that. I like different things now. I am not the same person I was and that is just the way life goes. i just want someone new and more loving and who is suited to my now values.

it's just something I have noticed that whenever I put a video in he thinks I am refering to him and I just want to move on from someone who couldn't even give me the love or time I needed or things my way and everytime some funny video goes on this delusional navie freak thinks it means I owe him or should behold to him and I don't. I really really want someone new and exciting to me and he could never be that. I like different things now. I am not the same person I was and that is just the way life goes. i just want someone new and more loving and who is suited to my now values.

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But thats not what pushed me off the edge to the point i had to literally write out my fucking anger(which rarely happens) and the only reason why im doing this is because i dont expect anyone but myself to fully understand my feelings. And yeah my friends who think is fucked up still dont understand. im just tired of all this bullshit…. And im not dumb enough to kill myself which doesnt sound so fucking bad BUT its not going to happen. The girl i like is the one who really hurt me the most regarding this situation and people in general. She was the one i wanted to rant to because i thought she was someone who actually wanted to understand me and hear me out. When i tried to talk to her about it the first thing i got was " omg im tired of this topic" since shes in our friend circle too. Thats what really gets under my skin and is a huge turn off. When im genuinely serious and want to talk about something the least you can do is fucking let me talk about it. 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