rose said that if they got rid of all the soap opera she would lose her lifes fun. she doesn't know how she will cope with her filipino monkey coming here cuz she likes her own private time in her unit alone and doesn't want to share or give or change and roslyn says the same thing and mum dad and me feel the same way. you just get stuck in your ways. after years of abuse you learn to keep to yourself and avoid people and don't even look at most people like I was at a performance thing recently and I didn't know if I should talk to the woman next to me and I answered her when spoken to but that was it i didn't even look at her and I do that a lot to people now for years.

rose said that if they got rid of all the soap opera she would lose her lifes fun. she doesn't know how she will cope with her filipino monkey coming here cuz she likes her own private time in her unit alone and doesn't want to share or give or change and roslyn says the same thing and mum dad and me feel the same way. you just get stuck in your ways. after years of abuse you learn to keep to yourself and avoid people and don't even look at most people like I was at a performance thing recently and I didn't know if I should talk to the woman next to me and I answered her when spoken to but that was it i didn't even look at her and I do that a lot to people now for years.
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