I wish I knew what was so wrong with me why I am abused and not many people help me. like not one person really helped me about the sexual abuse or rape, yeh I go see a therapist which is all top coating nothing. we never talk deeply about real feelings I never get to talk about those things with anyone. I guess I am just not ment to have feelings. I can't help feel that god is not so great when I have been abused and evil wins over the good. I am being bullied and I am sick of their abuse.