i told my family, "why do you think i hide away all day in bed studying? to avoid most people?" I know people hate me. people have always hated me. I was always too shy, too quiet, too talkative. too nice and loyal. too untrusting. I can't do a thing right and I don't give a fuck anymore. I am too old and too tired and too sick to care anymore what other people think of me. I just want to be left alone by everyone but a small few. I only love my cats no one else thinks of me. no one else cares about me. mum said I have nothing in common with anyone to matter or mix with others. dad is so stupid he thinks us being on welfare we are rich. like sure? how about the neighbors swap there things for mine. I wouldn't mind their cars and houses I don't own any.