Hi, I'm a married woman and I want to confess that

Hi, I'm a married woman and I want to confess that after been working in my old company for more than 9 years, I had an affair with my boss and we made sex a couple of times. That was my bigger mistake because after that, he started to treated me bad professionaly and nothing that I had done was OK for him. I didn't really felt guilty for betray my husband, due I was not in love with my boss, but the way he started to treat me was umbureable and I got depressed and in the and I decided to leave the company although I loved my job. Now I'm working in a new company but I miss my old one a lot, and hate the way I behave myself. Now I learnt the lesson. Nobody nows about this story. Do you think I deserve forgiveness? Thank you.