Since I was a child, i used to like my uncle

Since I was a child, i used to like my uncle very much, had a feeling of attraction toward him I grew up, naturally these feelings should vanish or cast away, but in my case it didn't My love and attraction to my uncle grew even more and more, i was resisting it but at some point i couldn't take it any longer, so i went to him and confessed and told him everything he was shocked in the beginning, and he didn't say a word, but he was listening to me, i even loved him more and more for this I felt that he loves me too, though he didn't say it or admit, i know that and i felt it by looking at his eyes, and by the way he was holding my hand while i was talking to him I even was crazy when i asked him if we both can run away to some other country, where nobody knows us, and get married or at least live like a husband and wife I told him that i'm dying to have a baby from him, yes, i wish if i get pregnant by this great man After a long silence, he started to speak, and he advised me to forget these nonsense i was saying, and gave me a lecture about life and what i feel toward him is a normal thing which happen to little girls (I'm 18 years old now), and that my affection to him is bla bla bla ... thing ,,, etc but i was not convinced, and i think (actually i'm sure) he said these words just to mask his feeling towards me I still love him, and i will always do, no matter what you people say, or what LOGIC says too I'm refusing to get involved an any relation with anybody else, simply because i can't thing about anyone else except my uncle i really don't know what to do Thank you all for listning