Killed a Chicken

Why me... I wonder why me sometimes...Here it goes, I am married, I have a beautiful son...I am a bad person...For so many reasons..Make a long story short...I met my soul mate at 14...WE never dated, But to this day, even though He has moved away and has never spoken to me again...(this was 4 1/2 years ago), I can't forget him. At night I go to bed saying, "Steve I hate you" and I wake up thinking of him...Why me....Don't get me wrong, I LOVE MY HUSBAND TO DEATH...but what I feel for Steve is so deep I don't know if I could ever forget him or really hate him...Thats not the worse part...The worse part is..I am having an "ORAL AFFAIR" with my ex. I dont know how I have come to this...With a great loving, sexy, husband..Why me...why would I do this ....Maybe I am evil....

Why me... I wonder why me sometimes...Here it goes, I am married, I have a beautiful son...I am a ba...

Got tired of my long term girlfriend. Starting going out with another girl pretending I was working. Somehow when I was with the girl my girlfriend started calling me non-stop, and it looked kind of funny me not picking up the phone. Blew up a little , but I still spent the night with the girl and told my girlfriend to leave me alone. In the morning I got a blowjob from the girl because I told her my fantasy was that she swallow because my girlfriend never swallows. So she swallowed. So when time spent was finished I went home, and found my girlfriend crying and really hurt and sad. Turns out she was up all night waiting for me. Begging me please don’t leave her, and all this other stuff how she loves me. Well then my gurlfriend gives me a blowjob and I hadn’t even showered from before. So my girlfriend cleans up after the other girl and I get two blowjobs from two different girls in a matter of hours. I don’t regret it, because as it turned out I’m not with either one of them. They both ended up cheating on me. Turns out my girlfriend ended up being a prostitute. I always knew neither one of them cared about me so I don’t see it as being messed up at all. C’est la vie.

Got tired of my long term girlfriend. Starting going out with another girl pretending I was working....

Maria the brat This is not good. I live in an ethnic neighborhood and between my wifes family and our friends we seem to know everyone. With my wifes family alone there are 28 relatives that live less than a mile away from us. I have only been married for 4 years and sometimes our house is like grand central station. Family friends and her family just drop in all the time. Now the bad part, my wifes brother George is a hopeless alcoholic and I know he beats his kids and sometimes his wife. When sober you would think he is a real nice guy but when drinking he becomes a nasty drunk. He works during the week but by Friday he is drunk for the weekend. His daughter Maria started staying at our house every weekend for fear of her father. She seemed to be a nice kid and she just turned 16 in June. I work the 4 to midnight shift and by the time I get up Saturday mornings my wife is already out with her sisters for the day. Maria started staying with us on the weekends last March and on September 1st I had just got out of the shower and saw a shadow in my bedroom. Our Master bath is large and the toilet is behind a partition. We have a large tub and also a shower stall that I use all the time. There is no door on the bathroom but rather a cathedral opening. When I walked toward the opening and looked into my bedroom I saw no one but the bedroom door was open. It never is and the only one who could have been watching me is Maria. After I dressed and went down stairs I asked her if she was in my room and mentioned that my door was open. All she said is she thought my wife was here and further explaind she never came in my bedroom but only opened the door. I knew she was lying just by the look on her face and the fact my wife is out with her sister every Saturday until about 4pm. I also knew she watched me shower that morning and did tell my wife about it when she got home that day. I didn't want to get involved with it so I let my wife handle it. Rather than talk to George she had her sister-in-law come over and the two of them sat down with Maria. I stayed down in my rec. room and a little while later Maria came down crying and apoligized for sneaking in and watching me shower. Her mother grounded her for a month and I was pretty upset about it but only made her promise not to do it again. When her sister-in-law left, Maria was up in our guest room and my wife came down to talk to me. Thats when I found out that Maria admitted doing this since spring time and was watching me shower every Saturday morning. This cute kid who I thought was a real nice girl wasn't afterall. The shower stall has a clear glass door so I knew she saw me naked many times and I began wondering if she watched me dry off. I often was naked when I shaved with no thoughts about privacy. Then it dawned on me that I sometimes masturbated while in the shower and realized she peobably saw me doing that also. If she did see me masturbating at least she never mentioned that to my wife or her mother. She still stays with us on the weekends but as soon as I get up I lock my bedroom door and still don't trust her.

Maria the brat This is not good. I live in an ethnic neighborhood and between my wifes family and ou...