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my therapist told me its normal to distance yourself someways from any churches at all after being spiritually abused, I went through it with the catholic church and also with penticostal churches and ministries that not really true religions, I have done some minor catholic studies but I keep my distance because I am sick of having to prove my faith - my words to god are between me and god and I was told a heap of crap that I had to not have any other idiols in my life not money, not relationships, not like pop stars or actors or have people I admire. I was told to not value principalitites by the bayside family church and also the love of love ministries so I was not allowed to like royals which all this was strange to me. then they did this opening of the mouth ceremony which is a form of egypitan and masonary yet the penticostals and ministries are against spirits and ghosts, and yet believe in demon possession, they don't believe in the saints like the catholics teach, they call the rosary beads demonic, etc so many strange contradictions, your not allowed to like asian therpies or art which is weird, or aboriginal or other cultures. I did have stockholm syndrome with the catholics and yet also a lot of anger and bitterness in how I felt so let down by the catholics at the school i was at where my dad worked, I never liked much about the penticostal churches, and I don't think they are christain at all. they don't talke about mary or the holy spirit all they talk about is how jesus died on the cross for you and he died and he died and he died and its morbid and based on guilt to control https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1aHg5UdwU6E https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vRnYse2VShg and all these churches will say "well who are you to comment about our doctrines?" as if your nothing https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZ6zcmPMTpQ then I was being controlled who to mix with and I had to remove all things but jesus and I had to repent everything and live like a dirty nigar peasant in a 3rd world nation and to me this was abuse and I told police and other groups how they were abusing me. being bullied by these maoris and islanders and my grandfather warned me out those people that there were some nice ones but the bad ones were really bad. and most of them are con artist liars and bullies and obsessed with black power and they bully white disability women as if we don't have a right to marry a white man and have a career. I don't blame the good ones but the evils ones really harmed me physically and mentally. and I know my grandfather would never do anything to a black woman as he was mostly impediant due to war illnesses and injuries.

my therapist told me its normal to distance yourself someways from any churches at all after being s...

there is few words to destribe this heat here, other then I just can't cope with it anymore. I want to move to a cooler climate and for my health sake I can't cope anymore with this lifestyle and his heat climate and poverty and I want to move from this hell hole in the bayside. its a morbid hell hole and I know there is a better place for me where my skills and values can be appreciated because its just not in this town for last 25 years or more. it was hell in Ipswich. the poverty and unemployment and struggle, we never owned a car and had to walk everywhere in the heat, one year we had to do heaps of letterbox dropping just to buy groceries and sand for a dodgy old 2nd hand pool we were given that never had a proper filter or fence. we never had money we were always on pitiful low wages . my dad was always on a peasants wages which I think was immoral we couldn't even afford sanitary napkins and when my dad was found on the office floor at the football club where he was working due to some big time rich football players who spiked his drinks - they caused him to have a stroke and collapse at work. they thought it was funny to see a married man with kids struggling like hell we had no food no xmas we were homeless and had to live in a tin hunt with no bedroom my sister and I shared a single bed on a veranda for months til we found a rental place - we had nothing. we still have next to nothing. all the promises that the ALP made to young people about education and jobs never helped us. we were sold a lie about education at unviersity and we were sold a lie with this old house. we tortured and sold a lie about so many things. life has just been one huge poverty depression illness and fear torture struggle. no hope of a better life in this dirty old place. the govt should get off their cunt holes and fix the health system here - where there are already hospitals they are going to have to build them up more for population. the shops here are shit. the food and rseturants are shit. the discrimination and poverty for single disability abused women is just disgusting. how a society allows so many white single disability women to be isolated and rejected and abused is something this govt has not addressed enough. most of the political figures don't know real struggle and poverty and sufffering. they have no concept of it because most of them are bullies and they need to bully to keep up their images and lifestyle and fake images and their not happy or content people, they are not good people. they have no idea of the real world. they just know dick/cunt and fucking and wage coming in have no idea how it is for people like me or other people struggling. I hate them all. they should learn what its like to struggle and live in suffering and pain and being bullied. I am sick of bullies. I have no sympathy for them.

there is few words to destribe this heat here, other then I just can't cope with it anymore. I want ...

australia is a country made of shit. shit people. shit everything. Its given me nothing. I just want to leave and move to a cooler climate where I can get work and be valued, because no one but the elite spoilt special get valued incomes or valued by friends or anything. its a user of a nation and america is a shithole too. its hard finding a place that is not a shithole. everywhere you look is shit today.

australia is a country made of shit. shit people. shit everything. Its given me nothing. I just want...