I am a completely neglectful parent when I feel like my

Now that my childhood and teenagehood are behind me, and my young adulthood is about to end, I feel like I haven't achieved anything. All I do is complain and hate on others for succeeding in life, while I constantly tell myself I'm better than them, that I wasn't given the same chances they got, which is absolutely ridiculous, I fucked myself and did nothing to get out of my situation. I feel like crap. Never been with a girl, because I was too afraid to ask girls out, still is. Never went to social events unless I was forced to, because I felt awkward in social environments but I like people, you can't tell I like social events because I usually don't look happy in parties, I'm always too stressed. Never did my best at school, while I know if I would have tried, I would have done so much better than I did. Never took initiative of doing anything that I told myself I should be doing. I wish there was a "Retry" button to life. :(

Now that my childhood and teenagehood are behind me, and my young adulthood is about to end, I feel ...

I always been adventuring sex but haven't tried it with anyone. But bec I read a lot of erotic tales I wanted to be fucked by many different guys. I want them bigs and huge guys. Thinking that I could get laid anywhere where people can see turns me on. So I need a daddy who would fuck me everytime.

I always been adventuring sex but haven't tried it with anyone. But bec I read a lot of erotic tales...

When I was high I use to steal alot from Walmart where I worked to pay for my addiction. I use to steal from my mothers purse when I use to visit and stole her credit card once to pay buy things for my dealer for my addiction. I blackmaled my sister susan to give me money 3 times or I would tell her husband Bill she had cheated on him. I broke in to my mothers neigbors house and stole a watch and necklace then pawned it for my addiction. I stole Karen Thomas's (best friend) new iPhone and gave it to my dealer for my addiction. I then blamed it on Karen's other friend Melissa. I pushed oral sex three different times on Dr. Ian Shtulman around his office ( shtultman family chiropractic ) just so I could extorted him for money by telling his wife Sasha who was pregnant at the time. I slashed the tires of my ex Brian's car because he refused to give me more money for my addiction. I took my boyfriend's father's (Paul) gun out of his car then used it to rob 2 trap houses for my addiction. I use to shoplift about every store I entered for items my dealer wanted for my addiction. Forgive me and I am not the same person now and regret all I have done to hurt others close to me. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference.

When I was high I use to steal alot from Walmart where I worked to pay for my addiction. I use to s...