I knew you were going to leave me soon. I thought

I knew you were going to leave me soon. I thought I had more time. Afterwards, I hated God for taking you away and everyone else for not understanding. Sometimes, I still do. Now I think I understand, seeing someone else lying in a hospital bed. Living like that would have killed you more slowly. Now no one will ever live up to the image I have of you. I miss you and I love you as much as ever. I hope you will be waiting for me...and they wonder why cars terrify me.