Sorry Uncle Pennybags, Sorry Mr. Monopoly!

i think when you have been abused by certain cultures it makes it hard cus you tend to judge all of them then, but I didn't like asian lisas bullying at me, saying "stop asking god for a husband etc babies are painful marriage is hard" its so negative like what she was really saying is "I don't think you deserve those things" and who is she? a number of people said she had no right doing that to me.

i think when you have been abused by certain cultures it makes it hard cus you tend to judge all of ...

it hurts and its confusing when people tell you "your not allowed to like this prince or that pop star or actor or that sports person or that businessmen or that doctor etc" its confusing why are some girls allowed to put posters up of their favourite star or teacher or and yet I am not, as if I am some lesbian and I not allowed to show want for romance or love, because asian lisa said "being love and marrying turns you away from your relationship with god"???? confusing? because some people feel more the presence of god by being in a marriage or inlove, and certainly having a baby, like to me a baby is like a gift from god, like my pets, I mean if I did have an abortion or miscarriage after I was raped with all the medications I was on and the over heavy period I had, to be honest I am glad because it would not have felt like it was from god, or through love. I am sick of people telling who I am allowed to like and who I am not allowed to like. don't look at him, don't ask for help, stop looking to be rescued to the point when i was bashed going to university i felt too lame and shamed, too coward and like i was weak if i had told the police officer that was sitting near me in the train that day that I had just been assaulted, I didn't want to tell because I was embarrased I would burst into tears about being bashed or that I would be looking to be rescued asking for help, It was a waste of time going to joyce about the pedo she never took it seriously right from day 1. just would not let me talk about it at all. that was confusing.

it hurts and its confusing when people tell you "your not allowed to like this prince or that pop st...

my right foot often goes numb around the pinky toe and top of foot when we go out and when I sit on the train my tailbone can be so painful when I stand up. its been worse this year but a few years ago it was shocking. I got regular cramps in the legs cuz of infection and my legs and lungs were so weak. I had to have physio on my lungs a few times to cough it out and it was hell. then when I had the tetanus needle i got well, what felt like how i think wet brain would feel. its terrifying the sinuses in the brain were crazy. I don't ever want to go through it ever again. its a nightmere all from infection, so I take olive leaf oil and garlic horseradish and c capsules and make my mum take them, i take a few different tonics.

my right foot often goes numb around the pinky toe and top of foot when we go out and when I sit on ...