Sorry Uncle Pennybags, Sorry Mr. Monopoly!

but you don't understand what I can't do for myself is not available to me. I can't make someone I love, love me. I can't love someone I don't love. I don't know how people get others to love them. I have no perception of that concept because I have been celebate most of my life and I walk away quick once someone says they don't like me. I just don't go back. I don't understand their silly little pathetic games and can't related. you either do something or you don't, one or the other. I don't have time to muck around, I get very bored easily with indecisive stupid people. and there are so many stupid dumb people out in the world now. its only bitches who win. you literally have to be a bitch to win in this world my dad used to say that to other business people when he was in politics and they would say no, you don't, the truth is you have to be a bastard to win in politics and anything in this world. you have to be a psychopath. you can't have rationale and love at the same time. it just doesn't go together. the most successful people in romance are the biggest con artists and frauds and most are vomit ugly. what would have made a rut pig shit scum with crocked teeth seriously think I wanted to be with a loser like him? leigh morris is to blame for that and I wish I could murder her. she deserves to be publicly exicuted for that. why do spastic rut losers with no personality married and ugly bald fat short and retarted seriously think single virgins would want them. because they don't. the other young single attractive men don't get off their cunt holes to do a thing to meet the single women and they are the idiots.

but you don't understand what I can't do for myself is not available to me. I can't make someone I ...

currently the austrlain govt attitude appears to be they just people or women like me to sit locked away in a room without friends or care and left to masturbate all our lives with any form of romantic love and meaningul emotional committement and its just not good enough to be treated like this and for a country or state to say that its ok for churches and colleges and doctors and everywhere I go to be bullied as some sexual slave to someone I don't want to be with. this was the exact same thing that these freaks did to me as a little child where I was a sexual captive to this dirty old pedophile for over 10 years from the age of 4 or 5 and its just not on! my parents are not tolerating the bullying and abuse from rsl and military and doctors, I tell my parents everything, even when we argue I tell them everything that people are doing to me or what they are saying. somedays I will rehash and repeat stories and things joyce and katy said to me over and over and over at my mother and father and other people trying to resolve it and I still can't in my head until I have the life I wanted back years ago I think I will continue rehashing and talking about it til its delt with and I am allowed some fight back and someone to listen to me and support my needs and my feelings in all this. because this is hate crime. that is what it is. its ritualised satanic occult on-going repetitive hate places I go so you learn not to trust. having a stalker watching every page i am on what online courses I do, where I shop or whatever is just an invasion of privacy and dirty ! its not helping me. its not making me feel love for people and infact its doing the exact oppposite where I am starting to hate and mistrust everyone and I could look at a man and not even feel love or a crush on him because I hear those things joyce and katy and rick and ken and the filipenos and my sister and so on, and other people said to me all over a new guys face now.

currently the austrlain govt attitude appears to be they just people or women like me to sit locked ...

one nurse at the local hosptial attacked me verbally about the population growth in the area as if it was my fault, I mean I haven't been given the priveledges that nurse has to have work or breed she was a maarried whore with kids, I have never been married and don't have kids. another nurse accused me of wanting to look in the triage examination room at other patients being examined which was rubbish why would I want to look at fat ugly old creepy hulkenstein sick fuckers when I hate hospitals anyway and I was more concerned about myself not others. then one nurse told me to get off the property and not come back and accused me of being rude and I didn't do anything wrong. this also happened at wello pt one misfit tried a stunt on me accusing me of being rude just because I asked when will the doctor see me because he was over an hour late. and told her I am not being rude to you I simply asked a polite question. she was trying a game on me to try to stir me up I could tell her gaming plan! and then one doctor at one of the hospitals said stupid things at me like look around and behind as you walk out the doors??? this was weird. another doctor got verbally attacking at me over medications that were causing problems and my mum was with me and she was just as insulted as I was - the ambulance told me to "get a new hobby" as if being sick and needing help was a choice? none of this made normal common sense its just hate crime and bullying and discrimination! doctors and medical staff who are "hate crime operants"... and it nothing justifies this and worse things that they were doing to me!

one nurse at the local hosptial attacked me verbally about the population growth in the area as if i...