Sorry Uncle Pennybags, Sorry Mr. Monopoly!

I can't take this fat anymore someone save me from my self-sabotaging!

I can't take this fat anymore someone save me from my self-sabotaging!

things I have done alone- i made a list, go to the movies alone, go dancing alone, go out to a night club alone, travel at night alone, catch buses alone to places I have never been and get lost alone- that was a big one- I got lost walking from the train station to a job interview they it sound like "oh you just walk here and turn here and go through a side walk near a park" well I still got lost and rang my mum and still got lost and cried I felt so awful. went to the hospital alone in the middle of the night, got ambulance alone, taxis alone, walked in the dark alone, walked in isolated places alone to get to my friends place, or met friends alone. did exams in strange places alone. I am sick of being the fuck alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

things I have done alone- i made a list, go to the movies alone, go dancing alone, go out to a nigh...

last year I spend dieting, nearly 1 hr a day on a vibration platform machine, hiit jumping on a rebounder over 500jumps per day, then 10mins on airwalker, 120on rower and 20mins on machine, resistance cords on arms and legs x 150 plus, 200 on twister, 5mins on stepper, weights and step for 5mins, gymball and pilates for 10mins and I didn't loose any weight at all I gained it. I only eat 1 slice of bread at lunch most times, I limit myself to only lean small meats, and only treats 1 day a week like ice-cream or a small cake slice, I eat salads and oats and I drank so much water it was brimming out of me yet my veins would still collapse in blood tests. what the hell is going on ? I am sick of this fat.

last year I spend dieting, nearly 1 hr a day on a vibration platform machine, hiit jumping on a rebo...