Sorry Uncle Pennybags, Sorry Mr. Monopoly!

I've had many friends and I give them everything. I gave my love, my money, my attention, my food, my home for them to sleep, my everything. All I asked for back was their love and they broke my heart over and over. I'm the person who loves and they reject me. I don't have a single friend who shows me off like they do to the others, I don't get any gifts, I don't get any food when I forget money, I don't even get a hug. All I want is for at least someone to cherish me and love me back. It's truly so heartbreaking to live my life when I feel rejected. I just want what everyone seems to have.

I've had many friends and I give them everything. I gave my love, my money, my attention, my food, m...

I'm in my mid 20s and I can say that I have yet to achieve anything. I haven't done much in my life and this is due to anxiety and depression. I won't say my whole life has been crap because it hasn't, but for the last years it's gradually going down hill and I'm scared what'll happen when I actually crash. Okay I'll start off with what has happened to me through out the years. At 5 or 6 I was sexually abused by a family friends son. He was slightly older and I didn't understand what was happening at the time. He would sneak me off and rape me while our parents were in another part of the house. I get a lot of flashbacks but in general I don't remember much and I count that as a blessing. Recently I have also experienced sexual abuse from an uncle. Thankfully this time I reacted as quickly as possible and told close relatives who were very helpful even though I didn't tell the whole truth because I don't want to be the reason my family don't talk. This is causing me pain. depression does that.

I'm in my mid 20s and I can say that I have yet to achieve anything. I haven't done much in my life ...

Sometimes I really fucking hate being a nice person because people always take advantage of it and see me as a pushover. My supposed "best friend" (and 99% of people in my life) constantly takes me for granted and does not appreciate shit that I do for her. When I do something nice for people, I do not do it with the intent of receiving compensation, I do it because I care. It really sucks and angers me that I bend over backwards for her and never ask her for a damn thing while she constantly takes advantage of me. Whenever I try to stand up for myself suddenly I'm a bad person and that's what I try so hard to avoid doing because I know what it's like to have mean/awful people in your life. She ruined this one thing for me and had the nerve to give me an attitude because she's a selfish bitch and I've just about had it. I've slowly resented you but now I fucking hate you. I'm done with your bullshit because I just cannot handle you anymore. Honestly Fuck you.

Sometimes I really fucking hate being a nice person because people always take advantage of it and s...