trying to stick to this raw food diet is hard for me in a way, occasionally I will search every kitchen cupboard for chocolate like a nutcase but often just go for months not wanting it. and crave weird things mostly cheese or rockmelon or just water and ice or chocolate mouse or gerkin spreads and i like goden syrup or molases lately becausse it takes like blood with a strong element taste.

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most of my friends did drugs and drink as seasoned drinkers or slushing in the vat at the distillery and out fucking heaps very young teens. I used to just pretend to do it or say "oh yeh we all go through not planning sex and one night stands and doing drugs" not knowing what else to say, or to sound with it , but I didn't, I just said things to make them feel better when they were going on and on, or pretend to be drunk when in fact I was not! I did so much fake stuff to make people like me. The weird thing is sometimes it worked. Everyone was liking me when I was a lap dog doing what they wanted and I looked good but also I was hated by those in places that could get me to places and they seen me as tacky and playdoe over flexible. I barely respected myself but now I say things even if it offends but I shouldn't be so quick to. god gave us 2 ears and 2 eyes to listen more and just 1 mouth do less talking. but he gave us 10 fingers so I can't type as I like typos and the whole kamboodle.

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my dirty brother asked my mum if he wanted to meet his 5 year old snotty kid. I don't want to. nor does dad because we don't want be accused of contaminating the child Jen, or be called pedos again. what would be the point of meeting them I have nothing to say to my useless scum brother and his whore wife who I hate for all the lies they spread and put my sister in a nut house and tried to kill me. never want them near me again. that little bastard spent years online n the early 1990s lying about his family of origin and spreading hate and its going to come back to him. they never wanted to know how I was abused by a dozen people so I don't want to know about their shit. I also include karonp with that. she can't deal with what her father did. sue can't deal with that side of the family did. R is lucky I even bother to acknowledge her presence after the rude hurtful things they did to me. NO I WANT TO SEE YOUR KID AND NOR DOES DAD, MUM DOESN'T WANT TO YET EITHER. WE HAVE OUR OWN LIVES NOW SUE SLUT! LEARN IT WHORE OR I WILL BASH YOUR FACE DOWN. I DON'T WANT YOU AROUND. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU DID TO ME. I TOLD YOU NEVER TO CALL MY MOTHER AND I MENT IT. I HATE YOU. I NEVER WANTED TO BE RELATED TO ANY OF YOU AND I WAS BORN FOR BETTER! ITS JUST THAT I AM HERE AND YOUR THERE AND I DON'T GIVE A DAM ABOUT ANY OF YOU. I WILL NEVER TURN TO FAMILY FOR HELP EVER, I WILL NEVER TRUST KARENP EVER AGAIN AND WE DON'T WANT TO GO TO ROB OR KARENP CUNT WEDDINGS. WE HATE THEM! KAREN IS A SCAMMING HUSTLER WHORE WITH ALL BUBBLE TO YOUR FACE BUT A MEAN BITCH GOSSPING RUNNING US ALL DOWN BEHIND OUR BACKS TO OTHERS AND I AM SICK OF IT AND THIS WILL BE THE LAST HOLIDAY WITH RON. I HAVE MORE IMPORTANT COMPANY TO BE AROUND SOON. I STILL BELIEVE I NEVER REALLY KNEW MY BROTHER AT ALL AND MUM AGREES AND MY SISTER HAS BEEN A COMPLETE PSCYHO VIOLENT ABUSER TOWARDS ME FOR THE LAST 30 YEARS WE DON'T TALK MUCH. SHE CAN'T MAKE UP FOR ALL THE ABUSE. I NEVER WANTED TO BE OVERSHADDOWED BY SUCH SCUM AS ALL YOU SO YOU CAN GO JUMP OVER THE MOON AND FUCK OFF AND DIE IN HELL BECAUSE THAT IS WHERE I WON'T BE. FORGIVENESS IS SOMETHING WE HAVE TO DO FOR OURSELVES AND I FEEL VERY CALM IN MYSELF ABOUT THAT. I DON'T WANT TO BUY INTO OTHERS EMOTIONAL CRAP AND LIVES BECAUSE THAT IS JUST SELLING OUT ON MYSEFL I TOLD MY MUM AND SHE AGREES. MY THERAPIST SAID I AM TO KEEP CERTAIN PERSONS AT A HEALTHY DISTANCE FOR MY OWN SURVIVAL AND NEEDS. I JUST DON'T LOVE ANY OF YOU ANY MORE BUT MY FAMILY I LIVE WITH FOR NOW!. I DON'T HAVE THE ABILITY TO LOVE ABUSERS! BULLIES WHO COULDN'T SHARE THE LIMELIGHT AND JOY AND REWARDS OF LIFE AND BULLIES WHO COULDN'T FORGIVE DONT' GET THAT FORGIVEN BY ME AND I LOSE NO SLEEP OVER IT! YOU ALL HAVE TO LIVE WITH WHAT YOU HAVE DONE! AND YOU WILL BY GOD YOU WILL LIVE WITH WHAT YOU ALL HAVE DONE TO ME!

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scum friends and people are in our past because that is where they belong! they left you behind, but my best came from behind the scenes of their stupid drama addicted lives.

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scum friends and people are in our past because that is where they belong! they left you behind, but my best came from behind the scenes of their stupid drama addicted lives.