I want to create a better life for myself. I look at jobs and feel hopeless sometimes. that is painful. I have forgotten what I have to give in jobs and relationships being ignored and forgotten and pushed down. I think it really hit me the day sally told me to "shut up and listen more and stop being interesting and be interested" I tried all that for years it didn't work. then what offended me was its not professional for a manager to say "I will slap you over the face if you don't give your friend a facial" there is no need for that unprofessional speak from a manager in a company. I should be allowed to say it I am not a manager or professional and believe me I could bash a lot of people. but I hope god will ! those who wronged me, I honestly have been led to believe I can give them illness. I don't know how, it scares me.