我在北京国资委工作的时候,一天下午我们中队长、副中队长、和2中队的副中队长一起找我谈话同时也是代表护卫队党支部对我的一次谈话。我们中队长首先肯定了我近期的工作表现,之后婉转的对我说:要不你也入个党吧。我听了后谦虚的问了一声:那要怎么入呀?长这么大没入过党。2中队的副中队长说:没啥难的,2万块钱,你交2万块钱就给你办一个。我当时一听这话惊讶的:哦,这样。副中队长这时接过话对我说:现在这形势就这样,在部队上也是这个价!都是2万一个。我低着头盘算着这两万元钱对我也是不小的一个数目,想起了我到北京工作的目的,最后说道:我来北京工作是因为北京的工资要比我老家高出一截,一个月有600多块钱呢。我挣钱还得给我父亲买药治病呢,我父亲在老家身体不好……入党虽然好这2万元钱我现在真的一时拿不出……就这样我和党员失之交臂。

我在北京国资委工作的时候,一天下午我们中队长、副中队长、和2中队的副中队长一起找我谈话同时也是代表护卫队党支部对我的一次谈话。我们中队长首先肯定了我近期的工作表现,之后婉转的对我说:要不你也入个党吧。我听了后谦虚的问了一声:那要怎么入呀?长这么大没入过党。2中队的副中队长说:没啥难的,2万块钱,你交2万块钱就给你办一个。我当时一听这话惊讶的:哦,这样。副中队长这时接过话对我说:现在这形势就这样,在部队上也是这个价!都是2万一个。我低着头盘算着这两万元钱对我也是不小的一个数目,想起了我到北京工作的目的,最后说道:我来北京工作是因为北京的工资要比我老家高出一截,一个月有600多块钱呢。我挣钱还得给我父亲买药治病呢,我父亲在老家身体不好……入党虽然好这2万元钱我现在真的一时拿不出……就这样我和党员失之交臂。
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