so tired just got in from work. just want to fall into bed or crash on the floor.

I don't trust people the way I used to. I don't like people the way I used to. I don't care if they are black or white, old or young, male or woman, I don't like people and I have a deep sense of distrust for most people. I am told that all the time. I am suspicious of everyone and their motives now. I mean I owe no one a dam thing not even politeness. I don't want to be friends or nice a lot. I sometimes am very rude to strangers and people and I don't care. when you been abused the way I have to learn to do it back when ever you get the chance to. and learn to doge the arrows as well. I can be rude and its great my parents are so deaf they don't hear and I just act like I never said anything but yeh, that is me. if you don't like it move on. don't mess with me. I have ways and friends in places that can hurt people. even people you love. I done things before and I get others to do my dirty work around the place well, things i don't want to do, put it that way.

I don't trust people the way I used to. I don't like people the way I used to. I don't care if they ...

what rubbish we need friends more then ever, I don't need anyone for anything. I don't need money from anyone. I don't need love. I don't need anyone and I hate people deeply like my sister has always told me to hate and don't forgive.

what rubbish we need friends more then ever, I don't need anyone for anything. I don't need money fr...

told police some jerk let fish tackle box with knife in yard and young dirty guys sitting on cars gwarking at me hosing the garden. stopped watering plants and won't garden anymore. told church about the animal killer who killed a animal on my birthday on the road and i heard the poor thing die terribly. won't exercise in yard since then. won't go out since tiger slut over road was phoning in spying on my every move around yard and she was jealous of me when I was in my 30s and thin and corporate working. so jealous and she was all of 10. told police about knife going missing and break ins. don't trust anyone at all. thinking of getting a savage dog to kill. I will attack if provoked.

told police some jerk let fish tackle box with knife in yard and young dirty guys sitting on cars gw...