I feel like such a reject. My family is always reminding me of how terrible of a person I am and they blame everything on me and it has psychologically ruined me. I started to abuse drugs and hurting myself and the people that actually did care about me like my boyfriend. I feel like I can't trust anyone. I stay up late at night every single night sick to my stomach about past sins and current situations. I spent my Christmas crying my eyes out because here's to another ,sloppy knight.