after all that has been said and done, why still can i not let go????? why do i hold this shimmmer of hope, that oneday il wake up and find this has all been a bad dream. in reality there is no going back, yet the reality is i cant let go. what am i meant to do? how long must i live this way? weve been together maybe 4months and already u want to be engaged in another nine. i love u but i dont no if i can make that commitment... im only 18, but i dont no what id do without u...