On the surface, my life seems quite happy, straight A’s, lots of friends and a happy family. But underneath, it's sad. At least to me it is. I only have one real best friend and about 2 real friends. One of my “friends” is a total jerk that ditches me all the time. Another “friend” complains about everything and keeps trying to suspended someone just because they're annoying. A group of my “friends” are keeping a former “friend” out of their group for literally no reason. That's all pretty messed up and annoying. And I would tell those “friends” that I don't want to be friends anymore, but they're all friends with my best friend, and if I told them I didn't want to be friends, my only best friend would ditch me. I also have the fear of being forgotten or abandoned. I often feel alone since I can't tell anyone this, because they won't understand. My life is pretty boring other than that. I'm scared that since I'm boring, my best friend will abandon me