:( I got upset over something that had nothing to do with my boyfriend. I became more upset when he just ignored me when I wanted comfort. It started a fight. At one point he went outside and I looked through his phone. There were several girls listed under male names. The texts I read were kind of heart breaking. I texted all of them saying \'I love cheating on my girlfriend :)\'. And then I deleted all the texts. I left his place a few hours ago. Last I saw him he was sitting on his phone. He poured out all my rum. So while he was pouting in his room I pour out all his salt, pepper, other seasonings, rubbing alcohol (he uses it to clean his bong) and I took all the lighters. I put all the seasoning containers back in the original spot. They\'re just empty now. I also hid his propane tank and phone charger. It\'s not that well hidden. If he tries he will find it. I\'m not going to say bad things about him to his friends. I deleted his number so I can\'t bother him. I left his Warframe clan. He doesn\'t care if he never hears from me again. I turn to the internet for ranting because he lacks the empathy it takes to listen to someone emotionally. I stuck around when he tried to hang himself. I\'ve had to deal with his parents. I originally got mad because he refuses to talk to me unless I\'m all chipper and wanting to play video games. It hurts that he\'s supposed to be my best friend but he won\'t try to help me. This isn\'t the first time he\'s ignored me. He gets mad if I don\'t put everything on hold to deal with his problems. I\'ve tried to explain this to him, but secret texts and league of legends is much more important.

:( I got upset over something that had nothing to do with my boyfriend. I became more upset when he just ignored me when I wanted comfort. It started a fight. At one point he went outside and I looked through his phone. There were several girls listed under male names. The texts I read were kind of heart breaking. I texted all of them saying \'I love cheating on my girlfriend :)\'. And then I deleted all the texts. I left his place a few hours ago. Last I saw him he was sitting on his phone. He poured out all my rum. So while he was pouting in his room I pour out all his salt, pepper, other seasonings, rubbing alcohol (he uses it to clean his bong) and I took all the lighters. I put all the seasoning containers back in the original spot. They\'re just empty now. I also hid his propane tank and phone charger. It\'s not that well hidden. If he tries he will find it. I\'m not going to say bad things about him to his friends. I deleted his number so I can\'t bother him. I left his Warframe clan. He doesn\'t care if he never hears from me again. I turn to the internet for ranting because he lacks the empathy it takes to listen to someone emotionally. I stuck around when he tried to hang himself. I\'ve had to deal with his parents. I originally got mad because he refuses to talk to me unless I\'m all chipper and wanting to play video games. It hurts that he\'s supposed to be my best friend but he won\'t try to help me. This isn\'t the first time he\'s ignored me. He gets mad if I don\'t put everything on hold to deal with his problems. I\'ve tried to explain this to him, but secret texts and league of legends is much more important.
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