i don't want to remember the feeling of falling in love much, because it was too painful being bashed and bullied, i have it locked in my biology and system now that the two feelings always go together and i can't win. its been that way since i was a child and teen, always being bashed over some guy and losing. its no fun at all. only as a child i bashed back i guess i should have as a teen and adult but being at law school i didn't want to cause problems, so i just spoke to police about it in private only.