last few nights I couldn't sleep and it was the same before the ballet and just have awful episodes of not being able to sleep and then by 2am I got the shivers and like my hands were all pins and needles and web feeling and I want to talk to my doctor about vit b 12 but I don't think he will take me seriously. I don't know.

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i get sick of paying for their holidays and things. i want to go away for a break on a working holiday on my own soon.

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Who ever said u had to enjoy being a parent I'm 24. My son is 5. He's intriguing, speaks at most times well beyond his years. He's funny silly and I often see myself in him. I love him . BUT I F**** HATE being a mom. I can't name one joyous , pleasurable thing about it. I didn't have him for awhile, my mom did. While I was in college and just trying to figure s* out but guilt used to eat me up like get your kid back. He annoys the s*** out of me. Like I hate doing stuff for him but he's well taken care of. I'm always yelling he doesn't listen and I feel like I'm just stuck doing something I never wanted to do. His dad isn't around that doesn't make the situation any better but it's way past Me being a single parent I just don't see anything praiseworthy about being a mom i absolutely despise it and never want to experience it again . There is something called b ataraxia that I think I relate to or have because I just recently found out about it and if I would have acknowledged the feelings of dislike that I've always had when I thought about having kids maybe I would have aborted him because I'm definitely not against abortion, definitely not. But I didn't and I regret not taking the situation more seriously when I found out I was pregnant I was so nonchalant I look back like you idiot what was wrong with you, you were 19 and found out you were pregnant why didn't you cry! Yell! Get mad!? Anything!!! But I didn't and that's why I'm here now. I wish I had the answer to why I feel this way it could fix it because he didn't ask to be here and sometimes I'm doing OK with it but other times I just shut myself out from everything and it's one of those days or weeks where I feel nothing but regret and sadness because I feel trapped being something I never wanted for myself.

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Love Iam in love with a boy at school any time seehim drea tuching his disck

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i get sick of paying for their holidays and things. i want to go away for a break on a working holiday on my own soon.

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