Analysing my situation now have the impression that my life is being put on hold, so someone can live their life. It as if they are pausing my life, as in a computer game, except it is as if another player paused your character but continued playing their game. You know, when you pause your character so that you can plan and set things up to happen for the character, and then unpause when you planned everything, ¤ Except it's been years ¤ Not good things are being planned ¤ It is another "player" who is pausing my life ¤ It is real life and another person's life shouldn't be stopped so that you can live yours there's oxygen for everybody, and the sun shines for everybody is just that some can't understand it.