my sister is verbally and physically violent to me and I don't love her. the only reason I don't like people abusing her is she has always learnt it served her well to take it out on me like a lot of people have like katy and joyce and louise and others. I don't love these people anymore. its very librating to not love a lot of people. I don't love my brother. I never loved one guy I went out with ever! and it took me up until about when my grandfather died to realise this that no guy has lived up to the image of a man I wanted, the only ones who did I only knew them professionally as teachers or I was a patient or I worked in the office with them or I met them on a jobb situation like police. no man I have had personal time with has ever been romantic or loveable or even had finer qualities or as my grandmother would say "they wouldn't even make a mans bootlace let alone a man!"