i feel extremely ill since lunchtime. i feel dizzy and like i could throw up.

Fuckistan gives me the shits really it does. scamming freaks.

Fuckistan gives me the shits really it does. scamming freaks.

I am not putting up much christmas things this year and no lights as last year. we put in a huge effort in 2016 for xmas lights and no one not even the bus show came around, so we don't bother anymore. its a waste of money and time. we only did it for the kids and I used to slog it away pretending to be happy every xmas for my family and sisters kid and other people who don't even like me. They killed me. they know they did. they have to live with it.

I am not putting up much christmas things this year and no lights as last year. we put in a huge eff...

20 years of pretending christmas was fun without any husband or love. It was fun once when I was a teen and young adult but after 21 it was just plain terrible. no one special to share it with but loser family and loser parents and loser pets. never any love. never.

20 years of pretending christmas was fun without any husband or love. It was fun once when I was a t...