In 2.5 years my bf has never seen my stomach because its completely hideous and saggy due to weight loss and gain, the same goes for my arms. I have so many stretchmarks on my body that I am so limited in what I can wear. I am only 31 and was never able to live a normal life of a girl enjoying her body and able to wear nice clothes. I am only beautiful in the dark and that makes me sad. I am also screwed up from my childhood. I get so stressed easily have anxiety and at times depression. I never used to want marriage and kids but at this point in my life I do. Another sucker punch from life to me is that I don't ovulate so pregnancy won't come easy. Personally id rather adopt because I don't think id be able to handle pregnancy. I just want to feel what confidence and happiness is before its too late.