I pet my cats. Constantly. I tried to stop, but I feel this ... this compulsion. I'm so ashamed.

missy is always telling me I have to be happy in myself first and show others that and wallow in the pain of failure and fat and so on with minfulness and then everything will fall into place when I put on a fake smile everywhere, and she changed like a nut with a death in her family of orgin and I expect to see her break up with her husband soon and take up with a younger man. I know the patterns of women like that and men, the weight loss, the death of a member in family and this self satisfied look on her face and her con scam game and yep, I bet a few she will be on with a younger man and trying to push this old fart on to me who is 80 and we have nothing in common at all and he is too old for me, and mean while melissa has stolen my goals and dreams just like someone else did doing similar job. Its not professional what missy has done. she never keeps me in the loop of notices like she does the other female clients and I picked this up last xmas party how she give preferential treatment to other women and to get a book published takes money unless you have a friend who owes you a lot of favors. I could go around europen holiday for what costs for a book published. its around $10,000. and missy is playing a deceptive game of dirty! as my sister says, the person that cares less or has a bigger platform of power wins. that is missy! not going to forgive. meanwhile, she wants me to go to her brainwashing group on bounties. no thanks. go give that bible to someone who really needs it more then me who is always bounties.

missy is always telling me I have to be happy in myself first and show others that and wallow in the...

missy meagain melissa. is just a backstabber, I will tell you what she did, just wait and when I see you next we will talk.

missy meagain melissa. is just a backstabber, I will tell you what she did, just wait and when I see...

$10,000 is a baseline figure for a basic book to be published or it could be more. and missy melisa give preferential help to certain women when clearly I don't have money or power. if I did I wouldn't be here and if I have money I wish someone would show me where it is. I sleep in a bed with my mother because my own room is full of shopping addiction stuff from the abuse at russos and no job and no man. I can't afford to night club every friday to meet men. I don't really have many hobbies these days, I gave up gardening due to water restrictions and neighborhood bullies, I gave up home exercising due to neighborhood bullies and that slut tiger on her fucking trampoline, a tramp-o-lean alright is that slut. what more do I have to give up ? how much more of myself do I have to give up to be loved by you! or anyone! more to the point to make other mongrel losers feel better!

$10,000 is a baseline figure for a basic book to be published or it could be more. and missy melisa ...