this place smells like a dead rat I know I put sea water on my hair but that smells nicer even.

my neighbors are completely stupid their chooks come in laying eggs in our yard and they rot and the smell is foul and my dad has to bury them. I am the one being attacked with my dads drunken nightly attacks and my parents arguing and then I end up being attacked minding my own business over that stupid womens chooks and to be honest i feel sorry for the chooks. I don't want to see them hurt as such. i just don't appreciate the neighbors causing fights in our house and yet they can't come over and talk about how the fence can be fixed calming and maturely. and my father is literally terrified of the neighbors husband with all his guns and his bullying. I just yell at the blood dogs barking and I would yell at them given half the chance. cuz I still have a craw in my gut about them trying to kill me 2 years ago. mongrels. and the police from out of town came to see me federals or something because I started thinking over a lot of things that equalled on going terrorism and its not funny. its mentally effected me and caused me physical and mental sickness and where is my husband to comfort me? someone I can admire! god forbid!

my neighbors are completely stupid their chooks come in laying eggs in our yard and they rot and the...

i have felt deep guilt for a long time that I am a survivor of ongoing decades of child sexual trauma, I just have a different coping mechanism but I have feelings too and I have been sick and I don't want to talk about that, well I am not allowed to talk in depth about any illness! its stange, can't say this, can't say that? play this down. don't look like you care ? that makes the good looking guys want you more. ? so confusing!

i have felt deep guilt for a long time that I am a survivor of ongoing decades of child sexual traum...

I am thinking about going on a hunger strike and just not eating at all again. I have done it before. i take laxatives and diet drinks and just starve myself and I get moody. like today I was doing pretty well then I got a sugar craving and had 3 saos with marmalaide jam so there goes the diet again. the guuilt over every mouth ful of food I eat.

I am thinking about going on a hunger strike and just not eating at all again. I have done it before...