don't know what to do

28 years ago today my rel died. She died in a crackhouse, her body then dumped in a lot and found days later. It was 28 years ago. But to me it was only yesterday. This is the legacy of drug abuse. I had to tell someone. She may have been forgotten by most of the world but not by me. I feel lied to and broken.

28 years ago today my rel died. She died in a crackhouse, her body then dumped in a lot and found da...

I don't come on these sites much since I was on my cruise because I am so busy studying and other stuff. But I come on here when I have almost nowhere else to go to vent my problems. I can't afford to see top therapists and I have no friends. I am just a plain and average woman and no special skills or talents at all which is why I am alone. I just sometimes wish the people who abused me learnt how it feels, because if it was them or their kids they would be complaining. I get so sick of hearing about all these dam catholic kids molested, and I don't think its right but I was molested by a person within my home almost every day at least those kids didn't have it in their family. They could leave school and it would be gone. I am not trying to make light of others abuse. I am just sick of victims like me getting no support and no helping hand up. Just because we were abused we are labelled for life. This is why I tell people over and over don't ever bring it up and never talk about it because you will suffer. I have suffered more for being honest. I live in old broken down hovel house and poverty and I didn't get this way alone. A lot of bullies got their jollies off about me being sexually abused and sexually traumatised as a child over and over for years day after day living with it. well, you people are going to suffer for that.

I don't come on these sites much since I was on my cruise because I am so busy studying and other st...

i am past caring about romantic relationships and work, babies and needing a career or husband. Its like I haven't cared in ages about it. i just don't anymore. I create my own fun. I don't even bother asking others to come on holidays or cruises with us anymore. I don't bother asking about much. I don't care about much anymore.

i am past caring about romantic relationships and work, babies and needing a career or husband. Its ...