I hear screams, I try and ignore them but the pain I cause won't stop

Regrets Im a 17 year old girl. About half a year ago, I had a relationship with this guy. We talked for a good 2 months or so until he eventually left me for another girl. Then, he started to talk to me again in June. We picked up where we left off and two weeks after we started talking, we planned to hang out with another one of his friends and girl. We we're drinking and I definitely had too much. We went up to his room and starting hooking up and I don't remember much but basically we had s**. That was my first time and I don't even remember saying yes or how it even happened. I regret it so much. It gets worse though. About two weeks after, on my birthday, we did it again but sober. I felt pressured and like he only wanted me for physical stuff so I went with it because I was scared he'd leave me again. I regret that time even more. But it gets worse. Later that night, I went to a party with my friends to celebrate my birthday and I drank way too much again. I don't remember much but I vaguely remember having s** with another guy and then giving head to a different guy. I don't remember how any of that happened but Ive never felt like such a w**** in my whole life. Ive never felt so ugly and unwanted before then. I lied to my friends because I didn't want them to judge me or think Im a bad person for it because I'm actually a pretty decent person. I just f***** up really bad in a span of two weeks and I hurt so much because of it. The ass I was talking to eventually dumped me again because he lost his feelings for me. So now I'm alone, hiding the biggest most awful secret from my closest of friends. I just want to erase it all but I can't and I made the most typical of mistakes by losing something so special to someone so meaningless to me. I've started to hate myself. What should I do?

Regrets Im a 17 year old girl. About half a year ago, I had a relationship with this guy. We talked ...

I don't see what my aunt sees in tom and jim. not my type. I don't go to those things because they are her thing and I don't want them stepping in on my thing. its called boundaries. I am like that with all family. I won't go to parties or weddings etc so I don't have to meet men they know and I don't want to be around men they know. I want men around me who only like me and not them. its simple and its plain plan to avoid problems. having been attacked a few times never again. even Joy tried to push her old boyfriends on to me and she was like 30plus years older then me, like that didn't make me feel good about myself at all. I want men who only want to know me, not my friends, not my family, not my neighbors and not anyone who gives or gave me trouble. I only want to mix with my closed it group and that is it. because if i pick up a guy is playing games on me they are gone and i never cry over them believe me. I just don't.

I don't see what my aunt sees in tom and jim. not my type. I don't go to those things because they a...

I’m so happy to have found a website where people can anonymously talk about workplace FRUSTRATION. I hardly even know where to begin. I never loved my job to begin with, but it paid the bills and was doable. I’ve been there for several years, but things really hit the fan when we were assigned a new boss recently. This guy has zero people skills, and, I’m not saying this to offend anyone that may have a learning disability (especially because some of my relatives do), but I really think that despite his ivy league degrees and nifty sounding job history, he has something along the lines of Asperger’s Syndrome. It’s fine to even have a boss with that as long as they are being medicated, but whatever this dude has, nothing is remedying it.

I’m so happy to have found a website where people can anonymously talk about workplace FRUSTRATION. ...