I punish! I don't forgive. I won't be nice to everyone anymore. I deserve better then I have got out of the world and others. I am sick of scum around me. I hate my neighbors because I don't trust them. I tell everybody I live in fear due to their drinking and loud sex and drugs and leaving knives in our yard as a clear message or warning about something. I report everything to police. I go around dobbing people in to the police as my idea of fun. and I don't have to take these neighbors abuses when they are drunk druggies prostitutes and violent to other neighbors not just me. I am told I have a right to live with out fear but I tell them I am living in fear for years since these neighbors moved in and were abusing us, they even had their animals abusing us. I live in fear of them attacking me all the time. I tell police that. I tell people I am sicker then they think, people minimilize every life exeperience I have yet rescue others and I am sick of this dirty little game from nutters. nutcases. nutcases who are abusing me.