Have malicious thoughts at times

Understand when I say this..... In my own stubbornness brought on by him and my stepdad I have learn to hold grudges growing up. Emotions are like light switches to me that I can turn off. Sometimes I don't think about who that effects around me. I'm sorry that I stayed so mad at him. Because if I'd of given him another chance to just be around you'd of got a chance to meet him again. Add the fact that I call myself not speaking to you either for so long was pretty much me being an Asshole. And not just letting shit go. And the next phone call I make to you after all that time is to tell you our father is dead. When I think of how I could have connected the dot on that it hurts me right now realizing what I could have done but didn't because of my own selfish pride. And you may not care right now. And I understand b/c I'm right there with you. But when I think about what didn't have to be. I realize the reason you never got to know your father was because of me.

Understand when I say this..... In my own stubbornness brought on by him and my stepdad I have learn...

FIGHT WHAT?????? THIS CONCEPT MAKES ME angy...FIGHT WHAT???? i can not fight for family peeps need to travel their own paths, i cant fight for a life as clearly my path will go where it will...u cant MAKE people respect u or idk love u...i feel very unloved i guess....i see NOTHING that i can fight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my freedom i have it , as much as anyone does.. if i could fix everybodys life and make everything alll better...i would...but i cant so there is nothing to fight......if i have a fight it's to live and enjoy the life i have....lil more of the enjoyable would be nice but i can not say whats coming my way.....dread and self pitty go hand in hand.....gezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

FIGHT WHAT?????? THIS CONCEPT MAKES ME angy...FIGHT WHAT???? i can not fight for family peeps need t...

When I was twelve, I and three other friends stole tomatoes from a store. I feel so incredibly guilty for this because my mom asked me if i've had ever stolen anything two years ago. Of course I lied and told her that I hadn't stolen anything. That's not the only lie i've ever told her, but the other lies was not for covering up a criminal action. italia

When I was twelve, I and three other friends stole tomatoes from a store. I feel so incredibly guilt...