I am a 64 year old nurse and I have had sex with many of the husbands of my patients

I don't want to do a stripe show or burlesque or belly dance. I don't feel comfortable doing that , watching it not doing it. why do people think I am jealous of them when I am not. I am actually not jealous of stripers or tarts or people on tv or stars or royals anymore. I used to be as a child but I grew up out of that by the age of 16 I stopped seeing princesses and poop stars and dumb celebrities meant nothing to me other then entertainment value their nothing even more so now in my life and a joke. I see then as a joke and I see most people as a joke today. I have no person at all that I can look up to and admire as a role model at all. I don't even want to be like anyone in a career or relationship (YUK- that is repulsive to me the very thought of romantic relationships sickens me ) etc as perfect and just a human only. and during my 20s I wanted my own life to happen but no one wanted me. I met men who were not good enough for me. not attractive enough. not pretty enough, not intelligent enough. not strong enough. not independent enough. not loving enough. not good enough in personality and everything. sorry but no man has been good enough for me. The fat acceptance movement is not a fun or sensible thing to shoving down our throats. if the food isn't good then the fat love movement isn't good with getting off our fat ass to get healthier. sick of people expecting me to like being fat when I just don't and never will. I don't feel good or healthy. I don't like my what I see and nor do others who are honest.

I don't want to do a stripe show or burlesque or belly dance. I don't feel comfortable doing that , ...

Anxious. I'm a sophomore in college. I have a 3.0. I am in the nursing program. I have a wonderful boyfriend. I am generous. I am kind. I am smart. I am of average height and weight. I have dirty blonde hair. I seem happy; for the most part. .. well i struggle with anxiety. My therapists think im fine, because i cannot find the words to explain to them that i am afraid of the world, i am afraid of living here knowing that it will eventually come to an end, thinking about the meaning of life and just the universe itself immediately sends me into a state of panic, yes i fear living but i fear dying so much more. I confess that while everyone thinks im getting better, and that these changes i have made are making me better.. inside i feel so much worse and i wish i could be happy for once.

Anxious. I'm a sophomore in college. I have a 3.0. I am in the nursing program. I have a wonderful...

THE AUTHENTIC NIHILIST MANIFESTO You are you. No one else is you or know better than you what you really want to do. There are no guidelines for truth or good life outside yourself. Therefore you must believe in nothing outside yourself and also at the same time be true to yourself, the authentic being you are. What this is is and means is up to each individual to know and decide for themselves. The purpose of this manifesto is to free people from the bondage of dogmas and/or rational constructs for the emancipation of the authentic subject within. A subject might for example see their own subjectivity to be in essence illusory based on different interpretations of materialism or spiritualism, and this would still be what the authentic nihilist manifesto seeks to achieve, if the being in question sees this to be their own authentic truth and not for example implemented by belief from the outside. Others might see their authentic subjectivity to be unique like snowflakes or fingerprints, others as conglomerates constructed from common materials with no inherent uniqueness, or as manifestations of spiritual archetypes or the like. An authentic nihilist might want to learn as a student from another and see in different beings also differences in fundamental skills and abilities, which results in a vision of a vertical hierarchy of power among beings. Hierarchy might also be seen by an authentic nihilist to be a linear or a specialist type of hierarchy, in which an expert on a field, for example shoemaker, has more authority on the subject of shoemaking than those who do not possess his expert knowledge or skill on the subject. An authentic nihilist might also see in every being an inherent state of sovereignty which can only be corrupted when learning from another, or otherwise see every being as being fundamentally equal and as a corollary see all hierarchies as having no foundation in reality and therefore needing to be abolished. Authentic nihilist manifesto bows down to no political or moral agenda. Let nihilism with genuine subjectivity be the highest law! Long live the genuine subject! This text (written by Johnny Synaesthetic) intends itself for viral freeware - distribution on the Internet for the purpose of awakening genuine subjectivity among the members of the human race.

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