I am not suicidal but I know you would like me to be but I have never been yet.

Missionaries I am a active LDS member. My husband joined the Church before going overseas bout 18 months ago. Since he hasbeen back he rfuses to go to church. He doesnt approve of me going to church. He gets angry with me when i stay up late reading scripture. I pray all the time that the Lord will give me strength to be an example to him and maybe he will want to live as God has commanded. I have had the same missionary in this area for 3 months and he comes over alot(with the other missionary) and talks with my family alot. He sat down with my husband and I a few wks ago and tried to talk about or different veiws. That didnt go so well. While sitting there about to cry because my husband doesnt care if he disappoints God, I was overwhelmed with the feeling that my husband is not my eternal partner and thats why it is so hard for him to accept my way of living. yesterday at church i had a meeting with my bishop and he told me that when it comes down to me having to choose between God and my husband to make sure I chose God.. So with all this I feel as if there will be something major in my marriage that is going to end in divorce.The past 3 months I have dreamed at least 3 times a wk about this one missionary, noting sexual but he is in there. I have become very found this guy. I never thought anything about the way we interact with one another but someone pointed out to me tha he likes me. He acts as if he wants me. Nothing I have noticed but I am startin to think that God has sent him here so that I can be with him.

Missionaries I am a active LDS member. My husband joined the Church before going overseas bout 18 mo...

Hayley... Hayley why now… When I was 18 in 2003 I worked for J.Sainsburys in the West Midlands. I worked on BWS (Beers, Wine, Spirits) department, and when this cute looking young blonde started who was no older then 16. I had to watch my friend try and date you I asked you out loads of times and got knocked back… But you dated other guys who where a mess Aaron that a****** who cheated on you. Luke who dumped you. Will who you had drunk s** with, then there was the people who saw you getting into random guys cars after school and then that old guy from office you ended up in bed with when you were 17, and the security guard and not mention the one night stand you had with that other a****** Jamie who also left you… Well I moved on myself… and you finally dated Will, I had to hear how he enjoyed f****** you, and I heard the rumor you probably have been exposed to HIV and some other stds, and you add me on FaceBook afew days ago and ask me if i remembered all those time I had asked you out… and I told you I don’t… well I did, and thats what i’m sticking too that was 10 years ago and you should not have messaged me! actually I should not have replied! I look at you and yeah your cute, I wished you would have said yes and probably still do but… f*** it I’m not doing this again I moved away… I live north past the snow fields.

Hayley... Hayley why now… When I was 18 in 2003 I worked for J.Sainsburys in the West Midlands. I wo...

I want my wife go black I want my wife to sleep with a black guy . About a year or so ago my wife Rhonda and I was up late one night watching a p*** and a white women was kissing a black guy and my wife is not in to it said I'm not watching that ! But she still was watching it a Faw mins went by and I seen her p**** start to get all wet . It was running down her p**** and on the bed . I started talking to her and I said to her I didn't think you r going to watch it ? I lol . She said not a word she just had a big smile on her face a Faw mins gone by and Rhonda was rubbing her t*** and p**** looking at that big black c*** she had l*** in her eye's . When I asked her if she wanted him or if she wanted to by the women with him . She then said mmmmmmm ! I want his c*** deep inside me !! I asked her if she likes him . And she moaned "yes I do" he has a nice big looking c*** I want so bad . I asked her if she likes black guys ? And she moaned I do now! I like that black c*** a lot ! Then I asked her if she would fin a hot black guy and would she f*** him . She said I don't know if I can I now I will never go back f****** a white guy again . I know I will be a white s*** for all bbc men out there . She started to moan again and said I want to be f***** by him so bad I want to feel a his bbc deep inside me! She started c****** all over the bed . I asked her if she wanted a bbc d**** and she said " yes I do" I want to feel a black c*** in my p**** . I started f****** her and I said you want to be that guys s*** for real don't you ? She moaned " oh god yes" do you want a real black guy on the side f****** you when I'm not in bed with you at night . She moaned oh god love it ! As I'm in the live room on the net watching ir p*** and j********** knowing you r being f***** by your black lover and him f****** you all night and c****** inside you? She moaned " yes" I do ! A Faw days gone by and she said I think I want a d**** ! I said ok so we want on line and started looking for one and Rhonda goes mmmmmmm ! I like that one a lot ! Oh it is nice and big and fat and black . It was 9" by 2" so she got it and Rhonda love it a lot . She will masturbates a lot now with it . I go on line in chat rooms talking to women about f****** black men and I will be in my wife's bra and panties j********** for them most women love it . I will get in a dress to or ride a black d**** for then to . I can't stop thinking of Rhonda f****** a black guy. please paint your skin black for me. fuck a black man for me. suntan black for me if you love me.

I want my wife go black I want my wife to sleep with a black guy . About a year or so ago my wife Rh...