I told you my silly crush on you was over, that how I feel about you is just a deep care for a friend. While we are friends and I do care a great deal about you, I lied because I think I still have feelings for you that I shouldn't. I had to lie to you though, because I know too well how complicated this could be if we let it. I want you to make things better with your wife, because despite what you have said, I know you love her. She is beautiful and kind and together have made your son (who is going to be exactly you when he grows up) And despite what she said, I think/hope she must love you (how could she not? you are wonderful, I just wish you could see how great you truly are).