I want a job bc I need the money and time out mixing with others.

I might be gay for my best bro I have always considered myself straight. Always. I've had a few girlfriends and yeah. I'm straight. But lately I have been incredibly horny, and the only thing that can settle it is thinking about one of my best friends in a sexual manner. We're very close, but we've never done any of that and we're both straight. I've never thought of him like this until the other day. I had an extremely vivid dream. In the dream I was in my room and it was late at night. He texted me that ge was going to come over (which isn't odd). He came in and was naked. I got a boner. He ripped off my clothes and stuck his dick in my ass. I loved it and came fairly quickly. In the dream I remember that I knew that time had passed and that we fucked a lot more. The dream ended with us getting married and fucking on our honeymoon. I woke up wet... This dream was a bit after I started getting feelings for him. Is it possible to switch sexuality that quickly and randomly? And it wasn't caused by puberty because we are both in our twenties. I feel awful when I think about him because I have a girlfriend and it feels a bit like cheating. I'm thinking about breaking up with her, but my best friend is straight and I'm not sure I could deal with rejection. All of this is doing a number on my nerves too...I have anxiety issues but now I'm super nerous a lot (especially around him). I just want to love him and let him fuck me. Gods, I need him, bit I'm worried that this is a fleeting crush that will be over with soon. I just don't know what to do....

I might be gay for my best bro I have always considered myself straight. Always. I've had a few girl...

NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER I would like to share something with you, I don't know what reaction this will get, but I hope to get the point over that you should never judge a book by it's cover. I'm in my mid 30's married and in great shape and with out trying to be big headed good looking. I was a fashion model until I got married almost 5 years ago. It's nothing new for me to get attention from women, but tis is about something very special that happened a couple of months back. I asked a model friend of mine if he could find me a photographer who would be willing to take some seductive / kinky photos of me. These were a surprise for my hubby. he fixed me up with a friend who just started their own studio after finishing art college. So the day comes, I arrive at the studio and I'll admit I was at first taken back to find Jodee (not real name)was...I don't know how else to put it...a short plump busty curvy woman. We chatted, relaxed and got down to the shoot he was great at the job, making me feel comfortable and at ease and yes very sexy and wild too. I've worked with a few photographers but for some reason I was enjoying this shoot for all the wrong reasons. I was curious about Jodee, I was enjoying the attention he was paying me and was wondering if she had a boyfriend. After a while I picked up the courage to ask , she smiled and replied by asking if I wanted to be her guy friend, I joked if I wasn't married. He looked me straight in the eyes and asked me if I was serious or treating her like a joke. I felt awful and asked myself the same question in my head. I was sitting on a bar stool, I told her to put the camera down and come closer, she did, and I kissed her. At this point she removed my top and started kissing my chest . My curiosity was running wild, she was a great sensitive kisser but I was unsure how she would measure up in hot sweetness and not just in her bra size or booty ...OH MAN!, did she measure up, despite her height her chubby curves was so sexy turn on in satin next shoot. it was me. She was huge bust etc was amazing. What followed was simply the best sex I have ever experienced. I have made a few visits since and have never been more satisfied sexually. how good it felt makes me want more.

NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER I would like to share something with you, I don't know what reactio...

a few years ago the crisis domestic abuse group told me I don't have to give my things away to others and I was ill physically and mentally and in a dark place years ago when I said all that bc she told me I have a right to make it clear I owe no one a thing. I do want to have any treatments I can also to get healthy and just because I said different years ago doesn't apply now. I was in a hard place saying things negative about life and things from so much abuse from russos, medical people, rose and her Filipino cunts and other people and then I was ignored and neglected since 33. no one wanted to know me then. I know why. occultism gang abuse and masonic abuse. now we never had a thing to do with them. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kjulivgCaGY

a few years ago the crisis domestic abuse group told me I don't have to give my things away to other...