I was abused as a child and now it am hateful tored my dog and some time I get so mad I yell at him because he doesn’t understand what I am saying I feel like shit because iv never been like this I am scared for him and myself I have tried promiseing that I won’t do ever again I really know how it feels but it makes me angry because I am carrying more anger because I am currently homeless and trying my best but it no excuse for my abuse I feel like killing myself because of this I won’t you too tell me I am a shithead and let me have it all the anger out of me I hit things when I can I don’t understand why I am being like this when I was growing up I hated my father because of what he was doing too me and my sister and know I can’t even look in the mirror because all I see is him looking at me someone please help me

I was abused as a child and now it am hateful tored my dog and some time I get so mad I yell at him because he doesn’t understand what I am saying I feel like shit because iv never been like this I am scared for him and myself I have tried promiseing that I won’t do ever again I really know how it feels but it makes me angry because I am carrying more anger because I am currently homeless and trying my best but it no excuse for my abuse I feel like killing myself because of this I won’t you too tell me I am a shithead and let me have it all the anger out of me I hit things when I can I don’t understand why I am being like this when I was growing up I hated my father because of what he was doing too me and my sister and know I can’t even look in the mirror because all I see is him looking at me someone please help me

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