I've never been in love with anyone I've never been in love with anyone, i've never even kissed a guy before. Every time i see some one with a boyfriend i automaticly try to find the girls faults and think why the guy is not with me, or any guy is not with me. i dont know how to find a boyfriend. i think im too short, to ugly... 3 times i've tried to kill my self, with out anyone knowing.. (taking lots of pills) i cut my stomach so no one see's because i never wear anything that shows my stomach. I seem happy to people around me, but i feel really angry all the time.. i often think of killing people, and i am obsessed with serial killers and horror movies. i like older male actors, (thats not really a problem but people think it is weird).. i would call the childrens help line but i think my promblem is not seriouse enough... compared to people being abused or whatever any comments will help