Today, i looked at my life and i found that i

Today, i looked at my life and i found that i didn't achieve anything in it at all no friends no wife or even a girlfriend my life is dull i even stopped leaving the house except for really really important things i'm having a health problem in my heart which causes me to feel tired quickly with a least activity my legs and hands are numb i went to the doctor, but i don't have faith in him i'm afraid that i will die very soon, or at least will have a serious problem with my hear and it will stop beating i wish my life was better than this when i was young i used to have a lot of dreams, but non of them come true i feel depressed and that my life has no meaning or taste i don't know what to do i beleive in God, and i accept what id happing to me, may be i sinned in the past, and this is what i deserve please God, help me